Day 5-A time when you thought about endig your own life (Thursday, December 16, 2010 / 7:27 PM)
Wow. This is a very touchy topic guess.
Gosh I remember this time really clearly.
It was a time when my parents were going through a hard time , and my mother started working after a very long time.
I was alone most of the time at home and I was drifting away from everyone I was close with.
I remember when something happened and one night I was all alone with my brother, I had forgave but never forgot the incident. I remember thinking on things like why would I want to be alive, What’s the point of continuing this way.
Then I remembered Crying and my brother came and sat beside me and wiped my tears. Then I realized why should I feel this way. I have learned that Life is like a bed of roses filled with thorns when you walk the bed of roses you are going to step on the thorns and they are going to be blood. If you want to stop the path half way then you will never get to feel the softness of the roses that are still on the path. Life is very similar. There are going to be Ups and Downs. If we think of ending our life every time life throws us something challenging, then we are never going to feel the happiness that we might feel in the later part of life.
From then on the suicidal thought has never crossed my mind. Look at the challenges life throw you as something that helps you grow into a better person ,because from experience all the challenges life has thrown me I have faced them, They might have taken a toll from my mind and my body and might have emotionally drained me but end of the day those were the challenges that have made me strong and independent and taught me how to cherish and love yourself. Love yourself. Whenever I hate myself ,I always tell myself this: There might be girls who are better than me but no one can be me and I will start thinking about the good things about myself and make myself happy. Its funny how when people are sad they want to listen to sad song. Do you know what I do when I am sad, I listen to happy songs that will put me in a good mood. Let me say something if no one can keep me happy I will keep myself happy because I am so WORTH IT <<3
